October 17th 2004, 5:56 PM
I'm trying to read this book for school.. a really really extremely boring and useless book.. It's giving me a headache among with other things. Sometimes I just can't waste more time reading crap like that, even if that means I'll get a bad grade. Well actually, that would be the only reason why I would even CONSIDER reading it. I'm singing to StoryOfTheYear, and daydreaming to make it in the music-business! Lately so many thoughts have been related to that.. I'm able to separate the things that truly means something to me and what doesn't. I think when the time comes, I will just know that what I'm doing is right, yet all this is spontaneous thinking that cannot be truly 'planned-out'. I'm just really starting to look forward to my future, but jee I can't wait to get there!! I really can't stand this taste of every day-life, I'm dying to get away now. And it's not just a phaze I'm going through.. this is me speaking straight from the heart! Well in hope of getting somewhere I'll continue reading this book that does not make much sence.. Hopefully some day I'll find a true meaning in what I'm doing.

October 9th 2004, 01:28 AM
Life is tireing.. especially at 1:30 AM when you've gone to school every day of the week, and every day AFTER school been doing homework for the rest of the night till it's time to go again. I can't deny the fact that school is hard! And right now, especially for me. I have exams from last year + other exams this year, plenty of assignments due all at the same time of course, crazy ass project and every teacher just expect you to spend all your freetime working on their subject. And I did not just finish it all, I have plenty left.. I will spend this whole weekend and more days doing it. Sitting here with a stiff face, actually due to a face-mask (I don't even know why I'm keeping up with that stuff!) Kind of an 'reward' and a way to tell myself that I've been good and now can relax! Though the face-mask is far from relaxing.. not helping a bit! Make you look like a monster, but appearently is to make you look like the opposite once you clean it off! Haha I just sound like such a 'beauty-queen', don't I?! But actually I just do it for the fun of it! Really it's hilarious! Ehm okay, did I just write all that about a face-mask? Sorry about that!

For the rest, my social-life is kind of 'not happening'! Don't really have one at the moment, don't really have time for much now that school kicked in. I am kind of falling in and out in love with guys though, I suppose it's only a periode of time and will pass like everything else, right? I'm also looking for colleges in USA and Australia, I have an organisation helping me out now, so that's a good thing at least. Well this is all "dry-talk". I think I'll better just go to sleep and leave this for now. I think I just bored myself to sleep.. ZzZZzZzzzzzz

September 30th 2004, 12:16 AM
Wow-- this is like suppose to be THE big moment in my life, right!? Yeajj, I finally 'kind of' finished this site! I mean, at least the content is about right! Well I'm sure theres a lot more to say and fix; you still see that white edge don't you?! Ahh well, I will fix it as soon as this program is out with a new version, which will be.. pretty soon! So hang in there okay?
So what can I say.. starting up a new site like this is really a lot of work. I've been spending I don't know how much time-- but a lot of time on this. Not really all that contents, but just the functions and getting this site online was to become the biggest issue of them all! I got a tag-board, I'm pretty happy about that. Hopefully you guys are gonna use it! And the same with the message-board! Wouldn't it just be great if this place become like a community-place; a place where people could meet and discuss? Yes, that would be terrific. But keep dreaming, right?!
Well I have a lot to say.. but it's getting late over here (concerning I have to get up at 9 tomorrow morning to help my grandma out), so I'll just end it here. You guys are probably not interested in reading more crap anywayz!
Take care ya all!